Pslam 119

I am often very bad at many things when it comes to studying the word and praying. I promise I am trying to get better. When James and I first moved to Saint Doris Apartments and when we got the dining room table that was my grandpa George's we use to turn off everything and sit at the dining room table with our dinner and pray before we would eat but now we don't even do that. My New Year's resolution is going to be getting better at the things I need to get better at. I wanted just to sit back and reflect on somethings that I learned this week from the woman's bible study. I will be honest with you at first I wasn't sure if I wanted to do this study or not. It looked interesting and I felt I would enjoy it but I didn't want to miss the good old famous Soul Cafe. So as always I got talking to my friend Crystal over email about this bible study and I was still not sure and there were a few reasons why I was not sure. One was the money (for some reason money always stops me when I want to do something) and the other reason was my learning disability (I try not to let this one stop me but it always does). Well, Christ decided to use Crystal as a vessel in my life once again and I was finally convinced. We are now on week 2 of the study and I would have to say I love this study. I am learning a lot about Psalm 119 that I hope I will one day be able to use as a testimony to witness to someone. Yes as I was working on this study I started to get very overwhelmed... It was to the point I was going to be in tears. It is not always easy for me to understand what the bible means or what a question is asking of me with the reading comprehension problem I have. However, I know that even with this learning disability I have made many people proud of me (I wasn't even supposed to pass high school and I proved everyone wrong and I worked my hardest with the greatest mom, the best teacher (Ms. Alexander or as we called her Ms. A), the greatest boyfriend (James) at the time, and the greatest mentor (Sherri) and I made it all the way through a 4 year college with a BS in Child Development). I tried to work on this Psalm 119 study Friday morning but I couldn't think or even get it done so I went back to it on Saturday in the mid- afternoon/ early night and I was still very overwhelmed so I decided to email my friend Crystal and over the phone she helped me understand the passages better. So the things I have learned is that He is near. I know that God is defiantly near because he has shown me ways he is near. Whenever I am depressed God is there and he finds a way to make me feel better (usually it is through an email from Crystal or a message on facebook). I also know he is near because whenever I say a prayer (even if it is in my journal) he answers the prayer within a few days.  I can tell you that I am applying this to my everyday life as well because I am seeking God with all my heart. As most of you know I was saved on July 3rd, 2011 and ever since then I have been changed. Most of you have said you seen the change in me and that makes me smile. :)