Reflection

Today in church I was convicted and I mean that in a good way. I started to think about a lot of things. By now I am sure you are wondering what convicted me. Anyways, there was a question that was asked in church today and that question had me thinking about me and my walk with the Lord. The question was "Do you remember when you were saved and how you felt?" Then today in Soul Cafe we were asked how we were different now that we are saved then when we weren't saved. I can and want to answer both of those questions for whoever is reading this. First I remember when, where, and who I was with when I was saved and I even remember why I was saved. It was July 3rd, 2011 in room 111 which was at the time the Soul Cafe room and I was with my wonderful husband James and I was with Crystal and Martin Mayfield. This is my testimony: I was raised as a Methodist, so I went to church every Sunday. I was even baptized when I was an infant. For years I went to the Methodist Church and then I started going to EV Free of Santa Maria. I joined the High School youth group and then I joined the College and Career youth group. Then I moved to Fresno and started to come to Clovis Ev Free and joined Soul Café. I then started to doubt myself. Am I really a Christian and am I really saved because I was raised going to a church all my life. Well, On April 27th, 2010 Crystal Mayfield and I talked about my doubts and what being raised in a church and being baptized as a baby meant. After that nothing really happen. I continued going to church and Soul Café, but at that time my doubts were gone or they were just hiding. Well on July 3rd, 2011 Pastor Wil came up to James and I and asked James if he was ready to be baptized. That day my doubts came back and I posted something on my facebook page and to my surprise I had an email from Crystal with some bible verses. I asked Crystal if she could explain it to me and she said she would love to talk to me in person. At that point she asked me if Martin and her can talk to me at Family Fun night and I said that they could. So on July 3rd, 2011 we went into the Soul Café room and James, Crystal, Martin, and I talked about my doubts and I said a prayer and accepted Christ that night so I had a date I could point to and know for sure that I am saved. Honestly, to tell you the truth I felt great that I had a day to point to and I was extremely excited. I really can see a change in myself. I use to always be worried and scared (living in fear) of what was gonna happened in the next trial I was going to have and now I am not worried and I am not living in fear of what is gonna happen. I now have trust in the Lord. He has given us some hard trials since James and I have proclaimed our love for Him and we have got through them all and I have learned a lot from each and everyone of the trials and I have built more and more trust for my Lord. I even got to thinking about what the children of this generation are growing up with. I mean what are some of the tv shows, radio, or even movies trying to teach them and are they really teaching them what they should be taught?