Random thought/what is on my mind

Okay so I have a random thought and something that is just on my mind that I want to get off of my mind. So please know that I am not asking for anything except for prayer and please know this is just my thought/opinion nothing more. Everything is fine and there is nothing to worry about… this is just merely me putting the study I am in in application. So here is what is on my mind… today I have decided that it is time to not worry about this government shutdown and what will happen with SSI… God is in control and he will provide so right now, right here, today I am praying this very prayer: 

"Father, I thank you that Your ears are always open to my thoughts and my words. I ask that You would forgive me for worrying and that You would enable me, in Your time, to triumph over my worry. I praise You that You've promised to strengthen me and cause me to be fruitful in my life."
Today I am gonna be joyful and I am gonna continue to be joyful in the Lord because I am very tired of being worried. It is my choice to not worry and be scared. In all things Christ Supreme. 

And here is my random thought: So since July 3rd, 2011 I have changed… it has been a blessing and it has been a good change. I enjoy the change and I enjoy all that God has done for me. I praise God for all of the answer prayers. So right now there are some people who I want to thank for all they have ever done for me. First I want to say thank you to Crystal and Martin for being the tool to help me see the light. I know that God choose the right tools for me and I pray that they are always my tools. I also wanted to thank Susan, Paula, and Karen for always being there for me and helping me see that my learning disability is nothing to get in the way and I can do any study I put my mind to. God has shown me many trials and troubles and he has always shown me that he cares. So it is time to put 1 Peter 5:6-7 which says "Humble yourselves, therefore, under the mighty hand of God so that at the proper time he may exalt you, casting all your anxieties on him, because he cares for you" into work and it is time to memorize it. 

Reflection for the day

Have you ever felt like no one is listening to you? I am constantly feeling like that. Don't get me wrong I have a wonderful husband who listens to me all the time even when I am complaining and I have wonderful family who also listens to me and I have wonderful friends who listen to me. However, I feel like some people just don't listen to me. I can say something or give an idea and I feel like I am just shot down with that idea or even with what I just said and I feel like sometimes I just don't exist. It hurts me that I am thinking this way and it is causing me to be sad more then usual. In all honesty I don't want to feel this way and I just want to feel like I am a part of a group and that I am being listened to but I just don't know how to start feeling this way. Just the other day (Thursday 4-11) I was in the woman's bible study (We are study The Lamb of God by Nancy Guthrie) and well my friend and sister in Christ Karen Cook brought up how the first thing Moses heard from the burning bush was his name and then she started to sing He knows my name He knows my every thought, which made me think about my hard times and how God knew my name, he knew what I was thinking and he heard each tear that I shed. It also make me think of the day we sang that at The Harbor and my friend Karen Dill looked at me and told me it was my song. It was my song and I feel that this is still my song! :)

I Have A Maker 

I have a maker
He formed my heart,
before even time began
My life was in his hands

He knows my name
He knows my every thought,
He sees each tear that falls
and hears me when I call

I have a father,
he calls me his own
He'll never leave me,
no matter where I go

He knows my name
He knows my every thought
He sees each tear that falls
and hears me when I call

He knows my name
He knows my every thought
He sees each tear that falls
and hears me when I call

He knows my name
He knows my every thought
He sees each tear that falls
And hears me when I call
He hears me when I call

It seems that at this time in my walk (and it has almost been 2 years now... July 3rd, 2011) I am seeing that my maker does know my name, he knows what I am thinking and how I feel, he sees each tear I have shed, and he hears me when I call.